we accept the love, we think we deserve.

life.

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 21:53:50 GMT

life is good right now.

today is really pretty, and it hasn't been like this in a while.

i hate the cold, especially when all it does is rain, and its mostly overcast all the time.
bleh.

but.. yeah. im sad that its cold and thats its winter.

other than that. things are pretty good, good enough to where i can deal with it.

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i dyed. ...

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 01:59:47 GMT

i dyed my hair.. and i've decided that i love it.

its a change and i needed it.

and all my friends love it. so it's all good. haha.

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i dont think life could get any better. ..

Sat, 30 Sep 2006 02:08:17 GMT

so.. from Sept. 23(friday) - Sept. 25(monday-my actual birthday), but it was basically my birthday for about 4 days.
it was amazing. all my friends got me amazing stuff. and i love them to death.
ive just been having so much fun with everyone lately. ive had the best conversations, the best experiences, the funniest situations, just the best friends all around. i've finally found people that i can truely be myself around and be who i want to be and they understand becuase they know that its just me. but anyways.. yeah. just updating telling everyone how great my life is going now, and how i really hope it stays this way for a while and if it doesn't i hpe it gets better.

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best weekend ever?

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 19:07:05 GMT

Rascal Flatts lasts night was amazing! floor sets, some front row action!! it was sooo much fun.
even watching all the drunken people making an ass of themselves, which made me glad i didn't drink there.
um.. tonight is my b-day party and im really excited, and i hope it goes well, and that the weather will be nice so we can do everything we planned to.

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growing up. ..

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 02:12:28 GMT

so i got my senior pictures... i think they are great! Aaron is amazing.

i went to MTSU tonight with my friend kayla,
and we walked around and just sat and talked and we are soo excited to go there next year.
i really like it.
its definitely the place for me.
i like how its not to far from home, but yet i will be completely independent there.

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realization.

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 00:46:57 GMT

i did this to myself. ...

Sat, 02 Sep 2006 04:10:41 GMT

- me and laurel made mistakes.

- our bench is cursed. ..

- we miss them alot and want them back.

.. all i need is my band nerds and kayla and laurel!

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P.S. -- can you be really happy and really sad at the same time. i am.

this may be subject to change. .. but i doubt it. : )

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 02:56:18 GMT

im extremely happy right now.

and i love it sooo much.

.... i'm in the best place in my life ever.

only a few minor things could make it better.

: ) : )

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wow. its already been an interesting year. ..

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 03:21:01 GMT

well.. this past weekend ive had a life changing experiences.

something i can never get back.

something that some people find, they want to keep for the right person.

but for me. .. nah. it happened. and i don't really know how i feel about it.

im dont regret doing what i did. but. .. idk.

is it bad that im not sure if i care too much about it or not, i mean most people make it out to be some amazing grand thing, and honestly its not that big of a deal.

but.. everything is going quite well lately and i love it.

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Mon, 14 Aug 2006 22:26:04 GMT

soo.. school started and i actually think im gunna like this year.

ive got really great classes.

all fun and all with good people.

except for maybe like one class.

but.. it doesn't matter cuase.....

ITS MY SENIOR YEAR!!!

its soo unrealistic right now.

i dont feel like a senior. ha.

but.. idk. its weird to think that when i was a freshmen i was like oooo... the seniors, and i thought some of them were hott and what not. and now im a senior and i wonder.. hahah. but yeah. its exciting and scary all at the same time.

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Fri, 04 Aug 2006 03:47:31 GMT

two of my favorite quotes as of now. ...

"People don't know how to love. They bite rather than kiss. They slap rather than stroke. Maybe it's because they recognize how easy it is for love to go bad, to become suddenly impossible... unworkable, an exercise of futility. So they avoid it and seek solace in angst, and fear, and aggression, which are always there and readily available. Or maybe sometimes... they just don't have all the facts."

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"Anger and resentment can stop you in your tracks. That's what I know now. It needs nothing to burn but the air and the life that it swallows and smothers. It's real, though - the fury, even when it isn't. It can change you... turn you... mold you and shape you into something you're not. The only upside to anger, then... is the person you become. Hopefully someone that wakes up one day and realizes they're not afraid to take the journey, someone that knows that the truth is, at best, a partially told story. That anger, like growth, comes in spurts and fits, and in its wake, leaves a new chance at acceptance, and the promise of calm. Then again, what do I know? I'm only a child."

---- The Upside Of Anger.

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~~P.S.~~ -- im content.

and i like it.

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 03:50:16 GMT

we're all getting whats coming to us,

... its just in a matter of time.

_{honestly, i can't wait to see them fall.}

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"welcome back home megan!!" ..SLAP!

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 04:16:52 GMT

this is one of the very few moments in my life that i have been speechless.

i have no idea what to say.

im back from florida. it was fun. it was relaxing. i didn't even think about this town. which was the best part about the vacation. (pics later)
then i come back. and its like everything has changed. or maybe i have. i dont know.

but either way. wow. i just dont know what to say.

this town - BULLSHIT.

the people in it - even bigger BULLSHIT.

everyone is a hypocrite.
everyone lies.
everyone is selfish.
everyone is out to get someone.
everyone is doing something just so in the end it makes thier life better or they get some advantage.

i just dont get it.

i just dont.

i dont get people.

this one girl CLAIMS to be my friend. we've known eachother for a damn long time, and everytime i turn my damn back there she is talking shit about me or something else. i just don't get it. ive told that girl everything! maybe i just made the mistake of be her friend again. forgiving her.
i thought she was the one person that maybe, when she really siad, "i'm not gunna take sides" well.. maybe she really meant it.

and wow. .. this one well.. i dont give a fuck about her... our friendship just turned to shits when we both started acting nice, but all she does it talk shit or try and make drama. i swear she talked shit about EVERYONE of her friends. and here she is trying to become friends again and telling this person that she sees her going places, when as far as i remember. .. when we were back in school, all she did was talk about how much she hated this girl, and how obnoxious she was, and she was just rediculous and immature.

and then.. haha. what can i say about this person. .. i just dont know about her. we got into a really really bad arguement, it was more than just an arguement, but then she tells me she wants to talk about it and she writes me this long message explaining why we got into that shit in the first place and yada yada yada and now as far as i can tell. .. maybe im prejudgeing this, but.. .as far as i see it, she hates me now.

i just don't even fucking get it.

MAKE UP YOUR DAMN MINDS PEOPLE. hate me, or love me.

i dont give a shit. if you really cared. then you wouldn't be talking shit about me or what not.

i just want to know who my real fucking friends are.

but. .. i guess maybe the moral to this is you can' t fucking trust anyone.
your friends are your closest fucking enemies in the end.

damn.
girls.. uggh.

and it sux just knowing that i have one more freaking year here.
god, college couldn't come any slower!

people never cease to amaze me. ha.
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a get away.

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 03:31:15 GMT

so im leaving for florida in 2 days,
and this couldn't have come at a better time.

while i was on my way to the lake house with laurel and my sister,
i had one of the best talks in my life.
we talked about our lives, the people who are in it and how that effect it, and we talked about god.
and i have never felt so free in my life to know that i can believe in something.
i love laurel's church, i love going, and i love that now in life its not just me leading the way i have someone else right beside me helping me along.
who will all at the same time know where my life is headed but yet still let me choose which way i want to go.
i feel so relaxed.
but. .. now i know that what ever happens was meant to happen, and whether or not i think it was good or bad, it just had to happen.

i leave you with this quote on how i feel about the events of today,
_{" Your promises they look like lies,Your honesty, like a back that hides a knife,i promise you,that i am finally free."}

and florida will be so relaxing, and let me have some time to think.
and it will be amazingly fun all at the same time!
I LOVE THE BEACH!

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im back!!

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 18:13:04 GMT

I'M HOOOOOOMMMEE!!!

well.. it turns out i did go to the lake house!

and.. im sooooo glad that i did.

i had a blast. i love laurel's cousins and their friends!!

i had such an amazing time! i can't wait to go back.

but.. hopefully i'll only be home for 3 more days, and then its off to florida with kayla!!!

cross your fingers that i'll get to go!

: ) i love summer!!! hehe.

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i have got to get out of franklin.

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 04:45:00 GMT

so pretty much my summer has been unexplainably amazing.

what can i say. .. i have amazing friends that im spending it with.

butt.. even though i am having fun here, i really really would like to get out of the state or atleast franklin for a bit, so i dont have to see the same damn people everywhere i go.

so tommorow, i might (it will be a last minute decision) go to laurel's lake house with her, my sister, and her twin cousins.

but what id much rather do is go to florida the week after next with kayla. but im not sure if i can.

and i can, i deff. dont wanna go to the lake house, cuase i want to spend fourth of july with more people then just them 3, no offense.

sooo.. i guess we'll see.
all i know is things are getting boring, and i wanna a new change of scenery, and the beach just sounds like the right thing.

its where i meant to be. haha.

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summer.

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 18:35:25 GMT

only a week has gone by of summer so far.
and it has been amazing.
it feels longer than that! its crazy.
but i love it!
and the weather couldn't be better.
now only if i was at the beach!

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schools out for summer. ..

Thu, 25 May 2006 14:46:49 GMT

im done with school (for now)
and it feels amazing.
i will be a senior next year
and i dont even know how to explian how i feel about that.
its exciting, and scary all at the sametime.
ok well.. summer will be fun and relaxing all at the sametime.
i can't wait.
it will be one great adventure.

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prom.

Mon, 15 May 2006 00:01:13 GMT

i had prom this weekend.
it was a tad bit overrated.
the music wasn't that great.
they played way to many slow songs.
i wasn't that great of a date.
i danced with a ton of people.
and i had more fun when i got out of my dress and at the little after prom thingy i went to.
ha.
o well... getting dressed up for night is always fun!
I looovveeeddd my make up!

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[oh yeah]
pictures later.

Spring Break - 06` - Destin, FL.

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 04:29:29 GMT

so i think this spring break has deff. been one of the greatest memories of my life.
hanging out with mary and natalia everyday.
and not to mention meeting the greatest ppl on earth who make me laugh like crazy. i felt like at the end of the week, that we've known eachother for like ever. i will always remember these kids. and this spring break.
( thank the lord mary brought me with her ) lol. : )

PICTURE TIME:::

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me & mary on the way down to florida.

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the Sunset as we go over the bridge to destin.

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so we met up with nat and this is her and mary doing this sky flyer thing. i was too chicken to do it. lol. but we hung out with nat basically all week, which was amazing! lol. i love her!

these next ones are of me and mary on the beach.
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our condo. .. the taller one of the two.

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our beach. : )

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our tatoos. lol. Libra(me) and Capricorn (mary)

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me and mary parasailing. (sp?)

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us and the really hot parasailing dudes. (the blonde haired guy on the left and the one standing up on the right.) lol.

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on the deck with some cool kids. Left to Right :
(some kid. ha., justin, nat, me, mary, and paul)

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paul playing guitar for all of us.

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Nat, Justin,and Me. : )

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basically my favorite people on the trip including, Nat who couldn't be there. From Left to Right::
( Mary, Josh, Megan, Thomas, Justin,Me,and Baron's knee) haha : )

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a bunch of weird girls on the left,justin, mary,justin, me, cool girl, nat, and paul.

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Nat, Me, and Mary. : ) <3's to both of you girlie's ( i think it's halerious how we hung out with nat more in destin then in tn, which that is going to change! lol )

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our amazing chicago friends, us, and the security guard with torrets (sp?)

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w/o the guard. left to right ( josh,megan,me,(below me,thomas),justin,mary,natalia,and baron).. i love these people. : ) : ) they all made my spring break amazingly fun. plus some other ppl i met too!

this was an amazing trip, and experience!!!

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finally a get away.

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 03:25:31 GMT

please take me, out of my body and through the palm trees,
to smell ~~_California~~ Florida in sweet hypicrocy,
float in my senses, sorround my body,
i wake my nose to smell that ocean burn. ...

[ In Florida. .. be back in a week. : ) ]

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Spring Break. ..

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 21:21:24 GMT

In 2 weeks i will be in ~~Tennessee~~ ^{[i think not...ha].} more like in FLORIDA!!. ..

with one of my best friends mary, for spring break.

^{_{we're gunna drive down there and party it up!}} ^{: )}

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spring is in the air.

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 21:13:56 GMT

days like these make me smile.

^{i love being outside when its like this}.

^{i wanna go to the} park everyday.

^{i wanna go to the} ropeswing.

^{i wanna} swim in my pool.

^{i wanna} be with my friends,^{and not in a classroom}.

i want summer.

^{i want the freeness that it brings.}
^{with no proirities.}

^{besides making plans to party.}
this weather just puts me in a better mood.

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::undergoing a transaction::

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 02:46:43 GMT

spring break is in a few weeks. [very happy]

this weather is making me sick.
i hate the winter.
it does no good for me.

a few more months than its officially summer. [~~yes, i Am counting down the days~~]

maybe it is real. ...just maybe.

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 04:36:01 GMT

so.. ..

maybe i do believe in karma.

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p.s. -- valentine's day is coming up and im dreading it. lol. but on the bright side elizabethtown comes out on dvd on tuesday! : )